There have been so many changes to my life since I've last posted, some I'd prefer to keep personal but they include everything from health, to job, to relationship status, to residence, you name it.....
Lets just say after a number of years being unhappy, I finally found the courage to make some changes in my life and although it scares me some, I am better off for it. Never let anyone tell you that you can't.... too easy to prove them wrong.
Something I came across that I thought you'd all enjoy. Even though it's referring to women over 40 I think we all rock no matter how old or young we are!
Andy Rooney says:
As I grow in age, I value women who are over 40 most of all. Here are
just a few reasons why:
A woman over 40 will never wake you in the middle of the night to
ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think.
If a woman over 40 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit
around whining about it. She does something she wants to do. And, it's
usually something more interesting.
A woman over 40 knows herself well enough to be assured in who she
is, what she is, what she wants and from whom. Few women past the age of 40
give a hoot what you might think about her or what she's doing.
Women over 40 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with
you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if
you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you, if they think they can
get away with it.
Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know
what it's like to be unappreciated.
A woman over 40 has the self-assurance to introduce you to her women friends.
A younger woman with a man will often ignore even her best friend because she
doesn't trust the guy with other women. Women over 40 couldn't care less if
you're attracted to her friends because she knows her friends won't betray her.
Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to
a woman over 40. They always know.
woman over 40 looks good wearing bright red lipstick. This is not
true of younger women.
Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a woman over 40 is far
sexier than her younger counterpart.
Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off if
you are a jerk if you are acting like one! You don't ever have to wonder
where you stand with her.
Yes, we praise women over 40 for a multitude of reasons.
Unfortunately, it's not reciprocal. For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed hot woman of 40+, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of
himself with some 22-year-old waitress
Well anyone who knows me knows how I dread winter; just hate it. The summer we had this past year was spectacular, something we hadn't seen in several years and I loved every moment of it. I started sitting out in the sun in mid April tanning my goose bumps but I didn't care as the winter before was so snowy and cold. We were so lucky to see the snow recede as early as it did and I for one was not going to miss a single day of sunshine basking in it's warmth and radiance.
This brings me back to this winter as I had dreaded it as soon as it started to approach. Everything here gets so dreary and dead. No one is out as everyone retreats indoors for a long seclusion, in his or her own little world till the sun emerges in spring. Winters here can be relentless and long making it so lonely at times. It seems that this can be that land that the sun forgot to bestow upon and we can go weeks without ever seeing a blue sky. On those rare instances we do happen upon one, it usually is for just a brief visit and everyone tries their hardest to see it, as we don't quite know when it will come back. Most of this is due to lake effect from Lake Ontario. The reason I've dreaded this winter though is because of the summer warmth we had. It has been historically recorded that when we've had such a warm summer and the lake was as warm as it was, we usually get slammed with snow. This has not been the case so far. We've had some snow, but we have averaged 160 plus inches the last few years and currently it is all green outside. We've had many cold and extremely windy days but not much in the way of snow. No complaints from me but I wonder.....
will we get it all in one surprise dumping? I guess time will tell as it's currently only mid January.
Well yesterday I went on my first wine tour with a group of friends. We were 18 women with a 40 year span between youngest/oldest, yet we all still had many things in common amoung us. We rented a limo/bus to take us around so we didn't have to worry about driving/parking and could really enjoy ourselves. Everyone brought a dish to pass and we feasted in between our tastings. Each winery had a different way of directing their tastings. Almost all had a fee between $1 and $3 for the tastings but some applied it towards any purchase you made and some waived the fee all together. I picked up 6 bottles of wine, all different .
The east side of Seneca Lake was our destination and we covered about 8 wineries. The day started out sunny but cold and a little frosty but warmed up to the upper 50's yet it was very cloudy by the afternoon. It was a lot of fun and we're planning on doing this again late April but we'll have another lake as the destination.
It has been the most amazing 24 hours in that I have had the oppertunity to hear/speak to/from about 6 people that I haven't had the chance to in many months. I'm just totally in awe over it and so very thankful that everyone is great . I love my friends !
I was told not to worry about it for now as the chances of it happening so soon were nill but pfft, it happened! That's what I get for listening to a man! On Wednesday morning I awoke at 6am to turn on my screen and see a message to restart my computer. There was an uneasy feeling about it as I turned the power off but there was no other choice but to.....so I did. Little did I know that it meant everything that was ever on my computer, every e-mail, e-mail address, file. photo, graphic, song in iTune, everything would go POOF! Gone! Not There! Can I cry now? I haven't yet although I have really wanted to! I am just too plain pissed off big time I guess to release those tears but I know they're comming.
For those of you who don't know, I purchased this computer from my brother. He comes to visit me often and loads all the programs that he needs for work on a hard drive (HD) and sends it to me. Reason is so when he comes and stays, if there's a crisis at work or something that needs tweaking or immediate attention, he can stay here and work on whatever it is. He is a director of advertising at a magazine, so it's nice to be able to have him come and stay a week and if there's a problem as he can take care of it from here. For me it ends up I have all these wonderful programs, 1/2 I have no clue how to operate . Well anyways after some warnings in late February-early March, I was having some problems getting the computer to reboot. Welll I started making backups burning CD's. Little did I know about 1/3 of the info I was burning was actually taking place. The HD finally crashed and I had lost almost everything. Don't know why it did it but one day I went to reboot and no way was the computer coming back on.
My brother sent me a new HD still loaded with Panther (older mac OS) on it as Tiger wasn't to be released for another couple of weeks. Anyways I dealt with my loses, loaded what I could from backups (which is when I learned CD burning isn't the most reliable way to go) and cut my loses and started to rebuild. I was told to send him the burner I had back as he wanted to find out why it only worked part way. I asked about another backup but was told: "Don't worry the chances of that happening twice are near nill , besides with Tiger coming out, you'll be upgrading soon." So I left it.
Last Sunday I had a bad crash and I called my brother. He had finally sent me the updated HD with Tiger on it about 2 1/2 weeks ago but wanted me to wait in installing it. See I found out after that he HATES the new OS and didn't want me to upgrade which is why he had me wait. Despite my better judgement, I waited which brings me to Wednesday morning........................
Now I have nothing left but some anger and questions as to why I would kill 2 HD's in 6 months? I have taken my old HD in to a shop to see if they can get it working or retrieve some of my data. My brother wanted to have me just send it to him but I did that last time and got nothing back so I decided to take an alternative route this time. I am hoping to hear from them come Monday as they said they would try to get to it before but didn't happen , Don't know why but I get a feeling it's not gonna happen . Well I figure nothing ventured nothing gained.
I am now using the new HD, am posting this blog entry as a warning.....especially to males who think they know it all to take my experience as a warning, make a back up, please! You may very well be next .
Please send some good vibes and thoughts my way that I may recover some of my info without it costing me a fortune . I will keep you updated.
That's it for now!
Well Country Fair Days are behind me again for another year, thank goodness as it is always a fun but exhausting event. Attendance was down from previous years but some of that might have been attributed to the weather. Saturday started out chilly, cloudy and windy but quickly heated up with the abundance of sun, followed by some of the heaviest downpours all within a 7 hour time period ! The one bad thing, not everyone anchored their tents, so some tried to go flying off. This is not something you want happening with that many people walking around and some poor woman did get hit by one on Sunday. She was fine, more startled then anything but then, so would I if it had happened to me. Sunday's weather was hot sunny and very windy making it extremely challenging to maintain a neat display, never mind trying to keep your paper flyers from blowing off.
My youth group did finally pull together (after numerous threats of me hunting them down if they didn't ) and had a great weekend raising close to $200 in donations. When we have our first meeting in a few weeks they'll decide where to donate to. It always amazes me how some of the former members who graduate come back to see me. One guy who graduated 2 years ago came back to visit, saw that the club was short handed and decided to stay and lend a hand. I love working with this group despite the challenges it sometimes brings and feel quite priviledged to have this oppertunity. It's really an incredible feeling though when one comes back to see you. I have had several come back now and I'm always ecstatic when they do !
Last week I worked the blood drive that was hosted by the town for American Red Cross. The turn out was great and the goal for donations were exceeded. I am hoping to find out the exact count this week. This event is always fun to work, and we'll be doing it again on Nov 30th.
Well I have previously stated that Country Fair Days marks an unofficial end to summer and it appears that this year is no different. I like to walk early in the morning several times a week and lately, the last few mornings have been quite chilly. This morning though brought a sadness to me as not only did I see my breath from the cold, but several small flocks of geese had started to fly south ! We've had an incredible summer and I don't want it to end as I know quite too well what's in store for us .
Well signing off for now, will try to update again soon !
I hope you all enjoy this as much as I do. Some of you will be more willing then others to put your thought or ideas in here but I love it, makes you feel good when someone takes the time to read about you and the events you choose to share. My blog will contain random things from events in my life, public and personal (very personal at times) to updates on what I'm working on or future ideas for the board. I already have 2 active blogs but have not updated them as recent as I should. If you would like to see them your more then welcomed to read it: CRC Blog and the other CU Blog .
Well back to work after I take a little break. I'm proud to say that I've completed updating Basic Black, Blue, Nightsky, Purple Passion, Roses are Red and Granite. Atlantic Beach will be next although it may take longer as I may have to redo all the buttons on it, I can't remember what I did with the blank button, or what font and color I used . Oh well, we do learn from our mistakes, or at least hope so !
All I can say is I'm so exhausted but thrilled at the same time. I can not believe how fast this is going by, just finished another 3 performances, only 2 more left coming up this Friday and Saturday. I've updated my last entry with pictures, you can see it Here if you've missed it . Saturday night will be our last performance and I have decided to host the cast/wrap party which will take place after we clean up the popcorn after the show. In other words it will start about midnight and go on till? Wow, I can't believe it's coming to an end. I'm already starting to feel a little sadness setting in .......................
Well last night was a good rehearsal, went from 7 till almost 10. We went over 3 different scenes and made some minor adjustments. It's really something to see how it's all pulling together and everyone really seems to be getting into their characters now. I found out that on Monday, it will be a full cast rehearsal and someone will be there to take publicity photos as well as cast head shots . What this means is we all have to pull together some type of costume and be dressed for the photos, this should be interesting as our costumer is not reachable . The director is working on getting a key to costume storage for us on Saturday some time so we can see if we can borrow some items and match it with what we have to work something out. I do so love a challenge :lol: . The director is also requesting that me as well as my 2 counterparts learn how to play a Ukulele (I couldn't even spell it, never mind play it ) for our entertainment pieces I don't know about that but I'll try anything once.
I have to go back tonight for a short rehearsal at 8, till then.......................
First please forgive any typos as I have had 4 hrs sleep in since Tues night with a very light 3 hrs in-between.
What can I say, so far I'm having a great time although I am dead tired. I arrived yesterday at my hotel at 11 am their time (6am our) and I didn't sleep last night (I tried ) . I had walked all over the area yesterday and ended up last night at Harrodsâ€™s visiting Father Christmas (yes, I took my photo with him) and today I was all over London literally. I visited the Dungeons, saw Big Ben, Parliament, West Minister Abby, all the sites. Only went to the dungeons though and took a cruise on the river Thames, rode on the underground as I had enough of the bus . Tomorrow I plan on shopping on Oxford St and maybe visit Kensington Palace, which is where Princess Di lived. They have a museum. I am loving it here but there is just so much to do and unfortunately nothing stays opened very late. Most places close at 5 and shops close between 6 and 7. Only restaurants stay opened later. Will hope to wake and move earlier the next few days. Will try to update again soon, bye for now !
Well I found out I need to be there at 12:30pm , hmm was really hoping for first thing in the morning as I am not allowed anything by mouth after midnight but I'll have time to lounge around in the morning waiting around grrr. I have everything done at home that needed to be done, more or less so now I'm just waiting. This is going to be a long night but nowhere as long as my morning will be
OK, it's now 10:16 and I'm going stir crazy as I don't know what to do with myself
I have 2 hours to go yet B)
Well on Monday evening, I went to meet the cast of the play. We read through the entire thing and I'll have to say that I'm really starting to look forward to this, it will be quite funny . Now as for me, as of Monday night, I had zero in the way of lines, lol. All I knew was that I'd be playing a saloon girl and that things will come in time. I had to attend a blocking rehersal last night for the first and last scenes. I now have a name and several lines. My name is Tinsel , will have to work on changing that. Has to be a "T" and compliment Tiara and Trinket, as we are a threesome . We are together in everything we do on stage, and yes, I have to sing too although I'm not sure what, these poor people . If you have any suggestions for a glittery, sparkly "T" name, let me know. Oh and yes, I will be wearing a showgirl costume complete with fishnets, that will be interesting
I don't meet again till next Wednesday evening, till then..........
Well Saturday night was our final performance and it was great. I couldn't help but to feel excited knowing that it would be the best yet as everyone was ready to give it their all. At the same time there is also that feeling of sadness, that we would not be together anymore, everything was coming to an end. We have spent so many hours together and even though we're exhausted, we ran on pure adrenaline and motivated eachother with a renewed excitement each performance. To say this was an awesome experience doesn't even begin to explain how I feel as I have learned things about myself and have accomplished things I never knew I could! I've also made some great new friends.
After our final performance, about 25-30 people came over to my house (about midnight ) for the "Wrap Party" . We reminisced about our entire experience sharing what we thought were some of the best highlights, each one being better then the previous . We had presented the Director with a gift which was a photo album (covered in suede to give a western look) which held 50 photos. Under each photo page it had a few lines so you were able to add comments. We each took turns and added either lines from the play or improv lines for those pics we were in. In addition, we each wrote an index card with a personal message to him and added it to the back of the album. We matted, signed and framed a poster from the show as well, needless to say he liked them very much
I have ordered a DVD of the show, I can hardly wait as I have yet to see what we actually look like on stage performing!
I went to the audition last night for the play. There were 7 of us there auditioning and 3 people to listen to us read, one being the director. I have never done this before and I felt a little out of place as I was the only first timer there . I also found out after I was the only one looking at the script for the first time as the others had known about this audition for at least a week if not longer and had received copies ahead of time . I had no clue before Saturday night that it was being held and to say I felt a little out of place was putting it mildly. The script had lots of directions written in-between the lines and it took a bit of work trying to figure out what I was supposed to read and not read . One of the characters was an actress who was involved in a scheme and was portraying 4 different women giving her 5 different characters in one, and I had to read for this , I was so confused . Each character she portrayed required a different voice and well, lets just say I am not very good at remembering who has to be what voice, lol. We'll see what happens :lol:
When I was leaving though just after 9pm, the snow had been coming down for awhile and there were whiteout conditions. I will tell you, that unless you've experienced it, it is not something you can ever fully understand. I was so scared driving home, thankful that I had only about a mile and half to go. There was just like a wall of white blowing at you and you could not tell where on the road you were driving . There were no tire tracks to follow, you could not decipher the shoulder from the road or what side of the road you were even on. Visibility was less then 10ft and thats being generous. Of course about 10 minutes after I got in, the snow had stopped and I heard later on that night we received 3 1/2 inches in 45 minutes, all complementry of Lake Ontario :)
A Special Message To My Members!
On Friday August 11th, STCT will be celebrating our second birthday/anniversary! Wow, I can not believe how fast the time has gone and how much we've grown. We still are "technically" considered a small forum because of our number of members, but what members we have. Our content and post count far exceed forums many times our size.
I love that we are a smaller board as it allows us to be more personal/friendly with each other. We've shared many laughs, tears and joys between us and I couldn't think of a better group to do it with. Many of us have developed very real friendships here even though we have never met and have a very strong bond with each other. I also want to thank the rest of STCT's staff, Cackle, Debbi, Lorraine and Erica, as I have said over and over, I couldn't do it without you ladies! All of you members, you rock! You are the reason this place is the way it is and I love having this forum ! Thank you for making this place as great as it is! As I've always said, I consider this a member's board and am more than happy to add anything to the forums that you think we may need.
Here's to many more Birthday/Anniversarys! :buddies:
For staters: Happy New Year to All Who Read My Blog! :buddies:
What can I say, this past year has been a real rollercoaster for me. I have been through a few bumps, received some bruises and had some great times, had new experiences and met some new people as well. Not all have been pleasant, some have been scary and others amazing experiences that I will never ever forget. I can't get into details, sorry but if you are a close friend of mine, you'll know what I'm talking about
I look forward to 2007, can't wait to see what it'll bring but the end of 2006 has been pretty good to me. See you all next year, stay safe and have a happy one! :D
I know I hadn't updated for a bit but the play officially opens tonight, with last night being a final dress rehearsal in front of an audience
All went well and I'm really looking forward to tonight. I did manage a few pictures, hoping to get some more tonight as everyone was so tired yesterday, myself included. The pictures I have are from set build last Sunday as well as myself with our director and other characters from the show.
Well 3 of 8 performances are done already, I'm surprised how fast it's going and yet so glad that we have a few very much needed days off . I love this experience but am totally exhausted, probably due to all the adrenalin we build up and expend each night. Friday's show was an extremly small audience, almost disappointing in a way but last night we sold the show out including a few extra chairs that they decided to add at the last minute in one of the ailses. It was amazing as you draw so much from the crowd. They just get so into booing the villains and cheering the heros and some of their comments are so funny, you just feed right off their lines . When we were done with the play, we came out to meet and greet our audience and its so awesome to hear the feedback, especially the kids who are so thrilled to meet you .
We had received word that the next 2 Fridays and Saturdays are just about sold out, fewer then 10 tickets remaining at each as well as this Thursday's is about 3/4 sold. :buddies:
Well I can't help but to keep thinking about what happened to me the other weekend, not sure how I should feel about this. I was working at the store and this guy comes in with his girlfriend/wife, not sure. He's about 30 give or take a couple and as his gf/wife is looking at items in the store he approaches me. He says is your name Susan? I answer yes, he continues Susan (insert my last name here)? He continues "You don't remember me do you, my name is Lance (insert his last name) I manage the cemetery. I say "oh, hi I'm sorry I didn't recognize you."
Now I'm feeling a little unsure. See I have spoken to this man twice in my life. First when I bought a plot for my Mom in the Spring of 1999 and the second time to bury her ashes in the Fall. I have not spoken to this man since and he remembers both my first and last name? Think my conversations combined equalled 20 mins and how long ago?
Then he continues, "By the way isn't that you who walks in the mornings on (insert street name here) ? I answer um, yes. He says I haven't seen you in a while and I remind him it's still icy out, (was till this week) I don't walk under those conditions.
First, is it just me or what, I feel a little creeped out and second, I think I need a new walking route. :D
Well yesterday after I helped someone figure out their brand new lap top (loading different programs and stuff) I was just down the road from the mall so I decided to stop on in to see what kind of "Sales" were actually going on. I was amazed to see that JC Penney had multiple rounders full of clothing marked down to $4.77 an item , I had a good time going through them. I found a pretty blouse, 2 skirts, a sweater thats designed like a blazer (originally priced at $72) and 3 lingerie items for a grand total of $28.94
I was thrilled so I continued to another store where I managed to somehow find a blouse to match one of my skirts I had just purchased. I then went to Cache which I love but can't really afford anything in there, to check out their sale.
I found a pair of jeans that I really liked that were originally priced at $149, marked down to $39.50
I had a great shopping day, wish I could have more of those! So has anyone else found any great bargains? :)
Okay so today's episode of set building/tech practice ended early but was still productive. What we did today was decided on who was going to be taking on or off what from the stage as well as who was going to be closing and reopening the curtains when. I've taken a couple of more shots of the stage so here is what the set will essentially look like
Sorry I have not updated in awhile. The fair that the town puts on is now behind me and I'm happy to say it's over. I was so tired after that 11 hour day, too much really. It is not a favorite event of mine and after working it a few years now, I can really say that I have learned to dislike fairs. I never attend any, I've lost interest in them.
I received an e-mail about 2 weeks ago asking if I'd consider taking a small part in a play, which I agreed to do. It's going to take place the last 3 weekends in October and yes, it's a spooky type play.
Even though the part is small, I am having an awful time focusing on my lines. I'm not quite sure why but I really need to concentrate more.
Work has been super busy and my youth group has started their weekly meetings again. Plans are going well for the Pancake Breakfast on Nov 3, to raise money for the Volunteer Ambulance and I will be starting to sell tickets for that very soon.
Well that's about it for now, till next time.............
Another anniversary is here to remind us all of a harsh tragedy that happened 4 years ago. The World Trade Center was my favorite place. Whenever I flew home the plane would always fly by it or if I was driving I'd see it from New Jersey, either way I knew that I was almost home. It was always a comfort when it was within sight and at the same time brought a feeling of excitement.
I guess that being a New York City girl, I will always have a bond with this big amazing city but being that my first job was in lower Manhattan, this was my area, where I felt most comfortable. I knew lower Manhattan inside and out and WTC was my favorite place. I'd love to go to the top and was so disappointed when the outside observation deck was closed due to wind. Nothing like walking out that door to have the wind blow through your hair and try to rip any papers you might have in your hand away as if it was playing tug-o-war with you. Whenever I was there, I felt as if I was on top of the world and could just spend time gazing out at the view all around. In the indoor area, I'd love to lean up as close, flush up against the window as I could get and try to look straight down. My favorite time to be there was right before twilight as I'd be able to watch the sun set and feel almost like I was above the sun. I also loved to watch the city light up coming to life as the darkness would try to encompass itself upon it. It was never a match for this city.
Then 9/11/01 came. I remember all too well, where I was driving to pick up a friend when I heard the report on the radio that a plane crashed into one of the towers. That came on just as I approached my friends house and I ended up driving right on by it passing it up. I had to turn around and go back and got Barb to turn on the TV. We watched in horror as so many did what was to unfold and I shortly after went home to try and reach my brothers. Took me a while to get them but finally we did reach each-other and I was relieved to find out they were safe. Both work there in that area so tensions were high until I reached them. I watched on TV as the towers fell from the comfort of my living room, trembling and crying quietly as my brother was describing the terror of watching the towers fall from the roof of his apartment building on the other side of the river in Brooklyn. I can never explain the horrible, sick feeling that overcame me as I tried to be strong and show strength for my brothers. I'm not going to go into more detail about my feelings as I'm sure you can imagine what I felt. There are many people I knew who worked in that building and area.
Well now it's been 4 years, I still have not been back to the site. I have actual photographs taken by my brother from the roof of where he lives, so it's a permanent reminder of what actually took place. The first time I went back was December 2001 and was so saddened as when we were flying over NYC, I didn't even recognize it! I just can't seem to bring myself to go there. I find it so disturbing as I no longer have a landmark to tell me when I'm almost home. At some point I will revisit the area but it won't be anytime soon. I still can't seem to bring myself there and I have no idea how long it will take, until then........ may all who perrished there rest in peace and I pray that those that they left behind, that they have found some peace or acceptance and strength.