Wow, sometimes life can be so good and sometimes it seems like God just is mad at the whole world. My cousin passed away last week from a brain tumor, and a good friend of ours has just been given a few days to live who also has brain cancer. Sometimes you have to wonder what God is thinking. When a young very intelligent person has to go through something like this. Especially one who is such a good person. In all right now we have 4 family members or good friends who are battling this terrible illness. I know we aren't supposed to question God, but it is awfully hard sometimes.

Getting all the forms filled out and decisions made about college for our son is about to drive me crazy. I just can't imagine who decided this was the best way to go about the process of higher education.

Our nephew isn't getting to come home for Thanksgiving. I keep telling him that when he does get to come home on leave that it will just mean he has to go back to Iraq for less time afterward, but it is a pretty lame thing to make up for missing the holidays at home. Sometimes I feel so selfish, being thankful that my own son won't have to go into the service because he has a heart condition. I don't think I could stand having him over there also. It will be hard enough for me when he leaves for college, I don't quite know how I am going to manage just yet. At least I will still have my daughter for a couple of more years.

People that don't have a dog, or have one that is thrown out in the backyard just don't know how theraputic they can be, especially rescues. While I am loving them back to health, they are doing the same thing for me. I think sometimes I need them more than they need me. There is no greater feeling than a little damp nose and warm body tucked next to you when you are watching t.v., knowing that regardless what is happening in the rest of your life that the little guy next to you would probably give you his own food if he thought you were hungry. I wonder what could have happened to some people to make them so mean that they could hurt one of these tiny trusting little souls.

Oh well, my life is really quite good, just some bad things happening right now to make me blue. I have been married for almost 20 years to a nice guy, I have 2 terrific kids, I still have both of my parents, whom I love very much, and I have 4 wonderful fur sons, all of whom are wonderful. I live in a decent home, food on the table, are able to pay our bills, and I really don't want for anything. I guess I have to say all in all God is good to me. I just feel like I need to vent sometimes. Sorry.

Well I guess I'd better go for now, I have to get up early.